Okay... so, waiting really hasn't made my chest hair grow (thank GOODNESS...although with all the crazy pregnancy changes I'm going through let's just hope and pray that doesn't happen). Doesn't waiting fit in as one of those classic adages that your mother would say is good for you- just like eating despised foods like broccoli or sour kraut? Too bad nobody usually sees great immediate results when they eat broccoli or sour kraut or even when they wait...or else everyone would love to eat veggies and smelly things. And if you could see immediate results from waiting there would lines and liiiines of people waiting in anticipation to wait because everyone would know they'd get the result they're looking for.
My generation is the generation fresh out of college and onto careers and marriages or maybe moving back into their saint of a grandmother's basement. All believing college graduates want to know from God is what's next on the agenda of their lives, and when do they get to make their gigantic impact on the world around them. There are a huge amount of books based solely on finding out what God's will is for your life to prove it. But what if God's will is for you to wait? To wait a long time before He gives you that fulfillment to the dream He's placed in your heart?
I was listening to the radio today and a Joyce Meyer sermon was playing (I don't know enough about her to have an educated opinion, however, I do know that she loves God and as far as I've heard what she says is Biblically sound). She was talking about how God gives us time to grow. I was always bugged when I would see huge time gaps in the chronology of people's lives in the Bible, such as Jesus, Joseph, David, and Abraham. Reading a sentence like "he grew" would drive me bananas! I would always think, "That's it?? That's all they're gonna say about it?? What happened in those years?? Shouldn't we know about this??" For example, David waited 20 years after he was anointed to be the next king over Israel to actually become king. 20 years!! Most of us would pack up our bags and quit if we had to wait that long. God had HUGE plans for David, but David had to learn first. If God would have given David all that was promised to him immediately David would've had no time to build his character and life experience. He would've had no time to learn how to faithfully serve God and to do the right thing at all costs (not that he always did). In Joseph's life he was in prison for 13 years of his life for something he didn't even do! I cannot fathom how a person could live that life and continue to be faithful to the Lord, but he did it, and because of that God was able to mold him and use him in unbelievable ways. Abraham was promised a son in his old age, but still had to wait 20 years to actually have Isaac. Wouldn't your hope be dwindling after all those years?
You know, I have dreams of big things I can do for God...but living in Missouri for awhile has really made me feel like the most pointless human being to exist. My sweet husband goes to work for hours that I could never handle to do and learn things I can't understand, and what am I doing that the world could look at my life and think I'm contributing to it? I make dinner, keep the house in order, love my husband when he gets home, attend a Bible study once a week, facilitate a Bible study once a week, visit a BLESSING of a friend once a week, and go to doctor's appointments every few weeks....yep, that's about it. I'm thankful for my life, but I always thought after college God would shoot me off to California and I'd be changing lives through Christ. Now we're pregnant, and expecting our baby a few months after we arrive in California...so how exactly am I gonna change the world for Christ with a baby on my hip? Babies don't exactly make you the most flexible or mobile person God could use. But that's where I need to remember that in my own chronology it would say "she grew." That's it. Two simple words that will make the difference in whether or not I am someone God can use in big ways in the future. I have the option to live how I want and entertain myself constantly when I'm bored or lonely, but God is looking for me to be faithful in the small things and to do the right thing when no one is watching... and that in itself is purpose enough.
Katie
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